Patsy’s nikki .047 – Christmas, and the effect of watching series

 

Happy Holidays!!! Thanks for the gifts! I love them all, it's the thought that counts and I thank you.

 

Almost everyone from my mom's side came and it was….. hilarious!

Lately I've been eating lot's of onigiri (with seeweeds filling) and lately I;ve been addicted to Uni (sea urchin) sashimi. *drools*

During the break I caved in with my original addiction (watching) hehe. I've watch a couple of series. A Korean drama called You're Beautiful and The Tudors Season 2 &3.

And whenever I watch asian series it makes me wanna eat their food. Like now Im also craving for kimchi and bulgogi :S hehehe yum yum!

I also bought a new dvd player for my dad and I tested it out with my ARASHI DVD… awesome!!!!!!!!!!

Patsy’s nikki .046- Sunday morning and my head is aching

 

"there is nothing like old school music, sunshine, breakfast and warm and cozy feeling Sunday morning gives."

 

I've always had a bad case of migraine and it could be triggered by anything… like not drinking coffee, too much light, eye strain, or it could be from waking up at 6 in the morning to the voice of your dad shouting at your brother. This is the stressful part of my weekend or any night… here's the deal they always fight and every night, one concept my dad can't understand is that my brother is at his teens he want to go out and have some fun and sometimes one forgets about the wee hours of the day... and second thing is that he spends too much time with his boyfriend.

And here I am trying to savor my weekend by getting the much deserving sleep that I need, when I heard my dad shouting at the top of his lungs. I woke up abruptly and the moment I stood up the blood is rushing in my head. Then after that I went to the other room to see my brother packing his clothes and is ready to leave, I guess they just can't agree to disagree.

I talked to them both but hey boys will be boys. I told them that it could be good for both if they get some air and space.

With that throbbing pain in my head I ate and had coffee and went back to bed…

 

 

Looking forward to a great week ahead..

Patsy’s nikki .045 – Optimism, at the end of the day…

The week that was...

The previous week wasn't that good, things happened and bruised emotions are everywhere and one of them was mine.

Then I contemplated the whole weekend and it was a good thing that it was a long one, I thought all the things that had happened to us and what lessons it gave us; after all what we need is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Do you remember the hash tag in twitter #ImThankfulFor ? it reminded me of my old self. Someone thought me something, things happen for a reason, and be thankful for the things that you have right now, appreciate it, love it, savor it, we will only live once.

I appreciate everything that I have right now. My family, My friends who I think are the best in the world ( Now I understand why I lost the ones that I had… ) I have the most amazing person who loves me no matter what (6 months and counting), I have the most amazing job that I love and it makes me happy to go to work every day. I have the most amazing and generous friends in the web (Aj, Fidel, Jes, Lacey). Overall I do have an awesome life… it may not be perfect (who is?) but I love it and I'm living it. I take it day by day, see everything from the ground and experience it all. I'm still living my dream and chasing thunders but that is what life is all about- be optimistic, live ahead, never give up, don't "try" things just do them and if you fail learn from it('cause trying is doing something with an excuse if things go bad). Take each day as an episode and at the end of the day there is a lesson learned, always look at the light at the end of the tunnel and we will make it thru…



We all have our ups and downs, low key and high, we get frustrated, hurt, illogical, emotional and we may fail to see the what we should really be seeing (this happens to me) but I've learned to breathe, think and look back… and up till now I'm trying to be optimistic…

Patsy's nikki .044 - the power of dreaming

my first moleskine plain notebook, originally uploaded by patsy_p.

I've had my eyes on this baby since i first saw it. this is what we call my "dream notebook". I know, as odd as it may seem I've always wanted to buy this.
every time i would check out book stores i would always browse and look for the latest additions.

This black leather plain notebook, has always been my number one choice.


talking about the power of positive thinking and dreams.. :)

Patsy’s nikki .043 – weekend, holiday and endless list of …

This is a very long weekend and it helped me relax a bit, after the launch and everything I think the team needs some well earned rest.

I finished watching Dexter (Season 1) and it's really good, people who know me knows how much I love watching crime-suspense drama and this is just right for me. I've been meaning to watch this but I got lazy to even check it out, then after watching a live v-log of TMZ I heard Levin talk about then I said to myself why not watch it?!

After the first episode.. I'm totally hooked!! Just a warning this is not for those who can't stand blood… and I mean you (Pauvi and Lhez) haha~! I remember this one time where I had them watch this episode of Los hombres de paco that I love the most *drum roll* "the death of Silvia" where this character "Silvia" was swimming in her own blood in her wedding dress and all I got from the two is trauma and that high-pitched sweaking sound… that's why… beware. 
Become a fan in facebook: http://www.facebook.com/dexter

 Moving on… I'm slowly reviving this blog I'm planning to move to wordpress but I have lots of good tools here in blogger and hopefully I can buy my own domain soon. I'll put my Digital Marketing and Social Media skills to the test! Ha-ha! Btw, I changed my twitter username to http://www.twitter.com/patsyferrer



I heard that there will be this Kpop convention and if you want to check it out here is the link: http://kpopcon.info/first-ph-kpop-convention-promotional-materials/ this site is great and very generous to those who wants to promote it. They have diff sizes of invitations, posters, etc. that you can use.



Look-a-likes do you have one? Well I do… (this didn't came from me… just for the record)
                                                                   

 

(L-R: amanda peet, penelope cruz, audrey hepburn, me , anne frank)

a little FYI: me and Anne Frank (RIP) share the same birth date/day? June 12. 

PS. I'm so excited for my date tomorrow~! :)

Patsy's nikki .042

donuts!, originally uploaded by patsy_p.

It's been 2 months and stil.. NO LOS HOMBRES DE PACO!

Another nikki another life…

It's been a while since I last wrote here… I've tried to make it look a bit more appealing and I hope I could finish soon. (Hopefully to cater much better to those who often read this.)

Being a "fangirl" is not as easy as watching clips on YouTube, watching out for subbed jdramas (Japanese dramas) and singles or albums and trying to study their language. But it is as hard as finding a cab every Friday night and holiday season.

 

I've only been hooked with jpop, a little kpop, and Japanese dramas for 4 or 5 years now and along that I've been through every stage there is.

 

The "otaku" cycle:

First: The effect of viral media

Arashi (嵐) is my "ichiban" or number 1 when it comes to artist I've been a fan since I first heard their song "sakura sake" and how did I get to know them? Easy I was watching gokusen at that time and I saw the guy with the gold streaks on and I searched it on YouTube and right then and there I saw that he was part of the group called "Arashi". YouTube back then is just starting to boom and to us fangirls and members of the forum, that video streaming site is really important to us (along with these are youku.com and veo.com) Most of the fans who live near Japan or have satellite TV with "TBS", "NHK", "BS", "TV Tokyo" will record the videos of their guestings, dramas, PVs, and upload it so everyone can watch. And since the videos are as scarce as pepper corn back in the old century, every little video is important and every little detail that was added to Wikipedia was important and every new CD released and magazine pin-up is as good as gold for us. Those videos that were subbed grew and generated more fans than one could imagine (no wonder they booked Kokuritsu).

 

Second: The goodies!

Awww…. This is why I was so frustrated as a fangirl, I can afford to buy this stuff. My family is not well off and I only watch videos from the computer lab of our school and save money so I could rent a computer at a computer shop. I got my first computer when I was in 2^nd year during college and I was a surplus (it only had 128MB or RAM and 5GB of HD capacity.) I waited 20 mins to get my first Arashi song downloaded to my floppy disk and I'll upload It to my PC. I don't have any credit card so I can't order an album or but their concert DVDs.

During concert tour season they would sell "uchiwas"(fan), penlight, towels, posters, cell phone key chains, slippers, notebooks and t-shirts. I would drool over some other fan's blog whenever I see one, I would love to get one.

I was hard you can watch and listen all you want but you can't get the goodies…. Not until now.

 

Third: The crazy fan who always waits for cdjapan's email!

It started when I got my credit card (and someone very dear to me will raise her eyebrow O.o?) I bought my very first concert DVD! "Arashi Live in Tokyo 2008 (in Kokuritsu)"

Then I bought the second one: 5x10 All the best! DVD with all their music videos and commentary from the group.

And the latest buy is the photo book that costs me like a fortune! J

 

That's why Dear Mr. Johnny Kitagawa I'll be waiting for your free uchiwas and towels and also a ticket to their concert of even a backstage pass (crossing fingers). I would also love to be a FC member but I don't live there… but the mere fact that I'm a 2 hr plane ride away and an avid fan, I deserve a treat…. This is an open letter…. I'll be waiting Mr. Kitagawa…… J ja mata ne!

 

 

 

 

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40th post… for my nikki.
Maybe it’s true then.
I’m the only one standing in that platform.
Will this even go anywhere?
Almost is what I always like to say.
“A little bit more..” is my motivation..
“Maybe” and “We’ll see…” are the words that keep me hanging.
There was blindness, and then there was silence.
All I could hear is my brain feeding my heart hope, but in reality…
So, again… again… again.. in this cycle where I’m in… I hope… I hope..
At the end… I will still win..

Patsy's nikki .039 "volver"

I gotta blog this.. I just have too..

As I would always say… things that we don’t really plan may sometimes turn out to be pretty great.
Yes, I am happy.. no doubt about it… it was awesome and I would love to do it again… I guess now, Wolverine is one of my favorite movie.

Nah. I’m not gonna spoil this post, and I will not say any juicy details…

24 days till my birthday…. 24 days to go and I’m 22….

Patsy's nikki .038 "from Barbi's facebook to my life"

one of my facebook friends is Barbara G. and she posted a song called "Mislead"- Kings of Convenience and i just want to share this ..

Misread - Kings Of Convenience

If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there
The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know
It happened again

A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice
friendship is an end
What do you know
It happened again

How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?

What do you know
It happened again
What do you know




Thanks Barbiiii..... besos!

Patsy's nikki .037 "the 8th month speech"

So I was preparing for the speech that would bring me back 8 months ago, I have planned everything and when i say everything every small detail. And so i was really to say it all, when the unexpected happened. O.o' it felt like hitting a wall in full speed, then Bang! reality bites!

The signs are there, i was just too stubborn to see them. (yeah i know.. again!)

I'll just suck it up and let it things go their way...

So there, i dont know if i'm still gonna do it 'cause it feels like it's pointless na... and yes, i know what the outcome will be...

I need to start moving na... i dont want to be stuck in this place...

Patsy's nikki .036 -a tribute to my wing man este wing girl..-

alex, originally uploaded by patsy_p.

Alex a.k.a my nokia 2300 phone has been with me since 2005 O.o' yep such a long time... I named her Alex (and dont ask me why 'cause i can't answer that, i dont know where that name came from.)
I bought a new phone last Wed. May 6, 2009 a RAZR2 V8 phone.
As my wingman/girl, she has been with me through thick and thin. 4 heartbreaks, 3 deaths, Graduations, fall outs, fights, gossips, fun times, 4 christmases, 4 new years, 3 valentines, 3 bdays... nyways... Thanks.. and now that she's not my primary phone.... sometimes i miss her.... awww... still i can't let her go..so i gave her a new role.. as my sun sim carrier.. hahaha...

Patsy's nikki .035 - Dia del Libro

IMG_4566, originally uploaded by patsy_p.

after our class we went straight ahead to Instituto Cervantes in Manila. Because we came in late and most of the books are pretty much sold out we still looked around and prayed that we'd get lucky and we could find some good ones.

The last day (April 25) is the most active day. There was a guitar concert, photography contest,etc.. and the much awaited... the fiesta... this is my first dia del libro and i can say that it was quite good...



mas fotos aqui: http://www.flickr.com/photos/patsy_p/sets/72157617284855461/

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This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

patsy's nilkki .034

i went out to open my twitter last friday.. and i got this:






oh well.. hahaha... cool.. this must be because of the CNN- Ashton thing... nyways.. we won so.. congrats!!!!!!!!!!!



“Marie…”

It’s been so long since I’ve heard this name.
I was watching Dan in real life when this name popped up. Then I realized how long it has been since anyone called me this name. after high school people started calling me “Pat” or “Patsy” so all in all 9 years… oh well in those times they called my “Marie” minimally…. I kept repeating it over and over… “Marie… Marie… Marie…” but the usual ring to it was gone; it even felt like she was someone I knew. I keep recalling how it feels like, who she is, and what she does… But nothing… There is nothing… just that Marie was buried with my insomniac-nostalgic-heart breaking childhood… but damn it... I miss being her... She never cared about anything...but she suffered a lot, deprived, unloved, she was nothing… But I love her... It’s one of those things where you would say something like.. “gawd! I miss the old me…” well, I miss her…

Día del Libro Instituto Cervantes Manila (April 23-25, 2009)

¡Hola! it's that time of year again... it's Día del Libro!



Here are the Schedules:


April 23, 2009: Día Internacional del Libro
7:00 pm
Escribiendo cartas al silencio
Poetry recital by Juan Gelman
Presented by National Artist Bienvenido Lumbera

April 24, 2009: Una Noche de Poesía: Programa

4:00 pm
Folclore filipino en español

6:00 pm
DJ – spinner
Breakdancing jam session

7:00 pm
Malachi Team
DJing
Breakdancing – “Floor Geeks” Bboy battle
BMX Freestylers

8:00 pm
Cadena de poemas

9:00 pm
Malachi Team
Peter Parkher – “The Kwela Rapper”
Miko Pepito – “Spoken words with music and acting”

10:30 pm
Poética Danza

PRELUDE FOR UNACCOMPANIED DANCER
Choreography and performance: Myra Beltran
Video collage: Ruelo Lozendo
Original video footage by Ralph Steiner (1930)
Music: Max Reger, Suite no. 2, opus 134e, Prelude (for unaccompanied cello)

"DAPLIS A-KU''
Choreography: Ma. Elena Laniog
Music: "Et Apertum est Templum" by Robin Estrada
Dancers: Jantu Revilla and Nicole Primero

– Airdance
Artistic Director - Paul Alexander Morales
Associate Director - Ava Maureen Villanueva

– Automated Love
Choreography: Rhosam Prudenciado, Jr.
Music: Color Plate by Kabaitan Bautista
Dancers: Ava Maureen Villanueva and
Rhosam Prudenciado, Jr.

11:30pm
Midnight Screening: La noche en corto
Selection of Filipino & Spanish Short Films

April 25, 2009

10:00am
Open House
Mercadillo de libros | Booksale
Pintura para niños | Coloring activity for children

10:30am
Mesa redonda: Copyright
Copyright in the Digital Environment: A Forum for Writers and Publishers

10:45am
Foto del día | Photo of the Day contest

11:00am
Visita guiada | Guided tour of the Instituto Cervantes grounds
Cine para niños | Children’s film: Las aventuras del topo (75 mins.)

11:30am
Firma de escritores| Book signing by various authors
Spanish Online: Demo class for learning Spanish online

11:45am
Examen diagnóstico de nivel | Test your Spanish (diagnostic test)

12:00nn
Jazz en directo | Live Jazz

12:15nn
Clase de demonstración | Demo class (30 mins.)

12:45nn
Cuentacuentos | Storytelling for children

1:00pm
Presentación del libro | Book Presentation: Tesoro literario de Filipinas

1:30pm
Visita guiada | Guided tour of the Instituto Cervantes grounds

2:00am
Cine para adultos | Film: Al sur de Granada
Cine para niños | Children’s film: El bosque animado

3:45pm
Examen diagnóstico de nivel | Test your Spanish (diagnostic test)

4:00pm
Poesía Europea | European Poetry reading contest
Visita guiada | Guided tour of the Instituto Cervantes grounds

4:15pm
Clase de demonstración | Demo class (30 mins.)

4:30pm
Spanish Online: Demo class for learning Spanish online

5:00pm
Visita guiada | Guided tour of the Instituto Cervantes grounds

6:00pm
Concierto de guitarra | Guitar concert by the UP Guitar Orchestra

7:30pm
Awarding Ceremony: Foto del Día

8:00pm
Fiesta: Latin Party


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those words...

" i love you..." those words i can't even say it right. i've told you alot of jokes, and stories but it never slipped by.. "i love you" i've always wanted to tell you that, but it seems like i'm going to die. kiss of death, i know what will happen if i let this go and you'd know... it's never going to be the same.
i said it once but you never listened, if i said it twice it will hurt more than you know. i know what you will say, i've been playing it a thousand times in my head. but in time that you finally know the truth. let me say this... in all those chapters in my life from 1-3 i've never loved anyone like this more anyone else.. i've learned to remove my pride, to roll with the punched, and to give all that you have and more.... so there i just want to say.. "i love you..."

DELE the countdown

all work and no play.. as what the master said.. countdown to DELE now begins.. need to review the basics to refresh my mind... i know how clouded my mind is nowadays.. and i need to focus on the more important things but somehow there is a big storm in my head.. i know it will be over soon but i just cant get it right and now the feeling is coming back again.. i've felt this way before then i let everything go to free myself.. i made some decisions in my life that got hurt... "it all comes in packages..." i knew that but somehow, something is not right.. and now i'm back to the person i never wanted to be.... i'm not like this.. i need to be strong.. this is just one bump in then road.. even if you've loved too much..

why i love it.... invisible war...

Invisible war - Sitti Navarro

Invisible war

-sitti-

Invisible war, seems we’re fighting an invisible war
Strained manoeuvres, keeping silent score
In this invisible war
Every day I seem to lose you more
Both wishing it was like before
In this invisible war

Talk about a fine line between love and hate
We’ve lost more than our direction of late
Talk about a fine line between lovers and friends
We’ve never been lovers and now we’re not even friends

In this invisible war, seems we’re waging an invisible war
Every day I seem to lose you more
In this invisible war It wounded deeply the scar is here to stay

Opening up at all the little things I do and say
You always want things to be as before
So I make you angry and you bleed a little more In this invisible war, seems that we’re waging an invisible war

Every day I seem to lose you more
In this invisible war Want to go away (I still love you)
Got to go away (I always love you)
Got to be away (Time heals all wounds)

ed westwick k-swiss

yes... he sealed the deal!


i crush him tlga....

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Patsy’s nikki .020

Ø It took me a while to write this nikki.. hmmm.. the last two days of the previous week is filled of good-byes…. For now we need to say good bye to Patty, who’s been part of our lives… we can’t really put into words how happy we are that we’ve met and eventually became friends…. My other nee-chang…. Don’t worry we’ll keep you posted kung may 5 na (mukhang malapit na..)… but above all I think the one who’s really affected here is Mellie, they’ve been together and inseparable for 12 years… but we are happy for you patty…. We are….

Ø and I almost said good bye to smurf……… who didn’t even mentioned the subject, but rather told me the day itself…. Hmmmm... up until now.. I’m still speechless…

> we went to Ambos mundos after class last Saturday (con Bexky, Joey, Brian y Armis). We almost got lost.. hahaha… I know I should have let Brian seat in the front… Armis, thanks for the ride… besos!

Ø in our Spanish class last Saturday we analizad a song… it was sung by Julieta Venegas.. and as I was reading this it made me realize that I’ve lived to see how perfect it is…. For now this is my song… para alcanzarte…

Limon y Sal (lemon and salt)

Tengo que confesar a veces

No me gusta tu forma de ser,

Luego te me desapareces

Y no entendió muy bien porque

No dices nada romántico

Cuando llegar el atardecer,

Te pones de humor extraño

Con cada luna llena al mes.

Pero a todo lo demás

Le gana lo bueno que me das

Solo tenerte cerca,

Siento que vuelvo a empezar

Yo te quiero con limón y sal,

Yo te quiero tal y como estas,

No hace falta cambiarte nada

Yo te quiero si vienes o si vas

Si subes y bajas y no estas

Seguro de lo que sientes

Tengo que confesarte ahora

Nunca creí en la felicidad

A veces algo se le parece

Pero es pura casualidad,

Luego me vengo a encontrar

Con tus ojos me dan algo más

Solo tenerte cerca

Siento que vuelvo empezar

*if you really want to know what it means....... hahaha... online translator.

XD besos!!

cubie

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> "pwede bang mag pa memory extraction then deretso sa recyle bin? then empty it? actually... shift delete nlng! ay! reformat na!" - quote for the day.... yes.. i better reformat me... naks! junks...clutters... tsk tsk..


> teaching kate and lhez how to play guitar.. hmmmm.... the jedi master is in! yeah!

> there are a few things i want to do this week..

- eat okonomiyaki
- go to sta. cruz for our food trip adventure... i miss the whole A1 class.... nivel uno! yeah!

> remembering college.... i went there last Saturday.. and it brings back memories... 20% good.... 80% bad... yes.... but with that 80% i've learned a lot... esp. dealing with people...

> i just dont get Fermina Daza (heroine in Love in the time of Cholera..) i just don't get her.... tsk tsk.... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm............... errrr... i really have trouble finishing it.... the story is emotionally draging and heavy... sheeesh.............. true love...

> i learned something today.... P A N T S... i know.. for those who know the game.... yes... major looser moment... (L- in the forehead) i just figured it out.. we never finished the game.. place animals name things score

> shet shet shet tlga..... shetnesss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hay.....~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!





besos! XD

ang stat bow

Tying it up: SP!

note: this is a part of "tying it up!" that i removed....


tiny lights are everywhere, it's been 30 mins. since she sat down.

the wind is cold and somewhat warm leaves are swaying and she pulled the zipper of her jacket higher. "an hour" she thought "i'll wait an hour... i'm giving it a chance"

she left a message, she left a clue, now it's a matter of faith.

She was trying to figure out what this means, if he comes will she have the courage to say how much pain she's in?


"20 more..."

the morning before is not so promising, it was gloomy..

It started to rain, she stood up and started walking towards the shelter.

She's always been waiting, frustration kills her. every move , gesture he makes is shouting out a message "you're not going to be part of my life." and everyday for the past months it has always been like this. it's not courage but stupidity.

They've been here before, he knows where to find her.

She was skeptical, she will wait, she has faith. but the more this hope grows the more she dies. does he even give her the same amount of care that he gives other people. she doesn't even get a minuscule of it. but still here she is.


waiting...

then the rain poured.

'6 more mins..."


"6 more...."

self inflicted...

Self Inflicted - Katy PerryRemember when I dove into the crowd And I got a bloody knee under my skin, a mark from wiping out It brings back the memories Every bone's been broken And my heart is still wide open I can’t stop Don’t care if I lose Baby you are the weapon I choose These wounds are self inflicted I’m going down *in flames* for you Baby you are the weapon I choose These wounds are self inflicted One more thing I’m addicted too With each scar there’s a map that tells a story what a souvenir of Young love's like jumping out An airplane riding a tidal wave on an ocean of emotion My heart rips me wide open I can’t stop Don’t care if I lose Baby you are the weapon I choose These wounds are self inflicted I’m going down *in flames* for you Baby you are the weapon I choose These wounds are self inflicted One more thing I’m addicted too And I cover up these scars (We’ll make it we’ll make it but we break it) And I can’t stop seeing stars (lets hope not die) Whenever you’re around Around I can’t stop Don’t care if I lose Baby you are the weapon I choose These wounds are self inflicted I’m going down in flames for you oohhh you are the weapon I choose These wounds are self inflicted One more thing I’m addicted to I can’t stop no I can’t stop no I can't stop Ohh I’m going out in flames Ohh I’m going down in flames Ohhhh Baby you are the weapon I choose Baby you are the weapon I choose...